Bella's 4th Birthday is just around the corner. I can't believe that so much time has passed. I often find myself wondering what Bella would be like. I wonder what she'd look like or how she'd behave. This part of the year is extremely hard for me.
I'll be honest, there isn't anything that scares me more than thinking that Bella could one day be forgotten. It's going to be 3 years since Bella passed away, and it's harder for me to tell people about her. It's not that I'm ashamed, it's just that seeing people's reactions is difficult. Not everyone knows what to say, and I'm still trying to save my own broken heart. I think about her all the time. She's the first person I think of in the morning, and the last before I go to sleep. My love for her hasn't changed one bit, it's just harder now to talk about her.
This year, in honor of Bella's 4th Birthday I've decided to do Random Acts of Kindness. The idea stemmed from the miss foundation, where families perform acts of kindness in honor of their loved ones who have passed. The idea behind it is that together we can keep their memory alive while spreading love. So, I had some "kindness cards" made and we're going to start distributing them. Bella brought me so much love, and by spreading acts of kindness, it's my way of sharing.
Bella was such a little diva. She didn't like the sun in her eyes or the wind in her face. It was strictly shade and indoors for my little one. She had little baby mood swings, which I truly loved. She'd wake up some mornings with the biggest smile on her face, and others she'd simply want to be left alone like a little princess. The reason I share this with you is because I want you to know how much Bella changed my world. For one year, one month, and nine days Bella was my very own little piece of Heaven on Earth. I was so lucky to have been given such a gift.
So please, consider doing an act of kindness in honor of my sweet Bella. You can check out the details here.
I'd also like to thank YOU for reading about my Bella. It truly means the world. This blog has turned into a place where I can share her. I can share my worries, my joys, my memories. I just truly appreciate it.