Goodbyes are not forever. Goodbyes are not the end. They simply mean I miss you.. Until we meet again.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

For the Love of Bella

Bella's 4th Birthday is just around the corner. I can't believe that so much time has passed. I often find myself wondering what Bella would be like. I wonder what she'd look like or how she'd behave. This part of the year is extremely hard for me.

I'll be honest, there isn't anything that scares me more than thinking that Bella could one day be forgotten. It's going to be 3 years since Bella passed away, and it's harder for me to tell people about her. It's not that I'm ashamed, it's just that seeing people's reactions is difficult. Not everyone knows what to say, and I'm still trying to save my own broken heart. I think about her all the time. She's the first person I think of in the morning, and the last before I go to sleep. My love for her hasn't changed one bit, it's just harder now to talk about her.

This year, in honor of Bella's 4th Birthday I've decided to do Random Acts of Kindness. The idea stemmed from the miss foundation, where families perform acts of kindness in honor of their loved ones who have passed. The idea behind it is that together we can keep their memory alive while spreading love. So, I had some "kindness cards" made and we're going to start distributing them. Bella brought me so much love, and by spreading acts of kindness, it's my way of sharing.

Bella was such a little diva. She didn't like the sun in her eyes or the wind in her face. It was strictly shade and indoors for my little one. She had little baby mood swings, which I truly loved. She'd wake up some mornings with the biggest smile on her face, and others she'd simply want to be left alone like a little princess. The reason I share this with you is because I want you to know how much Bella changed my world. For one year, one month, and nine days Bella was my very own little piece of Heaven on Earth. I was so lucky to have been given such a gift.

So please, consider doing an act of kindness in honor of my sweet Bella. You can check out the details here.

I'd also like to thank YOU for reading about my Bella. It truly means the world. This blog has turned into a place where I can share her. I can share my worries, my joys, my memories. I just truly appreciate it.


  1. I don't know how I found your blog but I just read about Bella and your love for her. Thank you for sharing your story and your Bella. Tomorrow I am going to do random acts of kindness for your little Bella.
    Thank you, thank you for sharing. Your story and Bella's have changed my heart today. I had a tough day and it helped to hear about your story of love.
    I am a mom to twins who are 2 years old. When I was expecting them, people told me, and even today, someone told me about twins who were lost. Please, continue to share Bella's story. Of course, do it when you feel the time is right because people react different ways. And people might not know how to react. But your sharing your story does touch them. I can remember the people, when I said I was expecting twins, told me about twins they had lost. And I can remember the ones who told me after mine were born. And I feel lucky they told me and shared about their little ones. Like I feel lucky to hear about Bella. I will be thinking of her in the days to come and I will be thinking her name when I do the acts of kindness. She has blessed our Earth. I'm lucky to have found her story.